Social Media and Friends.

Social media is such a buzz kill. It really has a way of making you feel SO out of the loop. I sort of hate it actually, more like despise it.  There is nothing worse than seeing a tweet about your friends hanging out or having a picture show up on your news feed of people having an awesome time--and you're in your room doing nothing, or homework.  I don't like it, and I really think it was created for people to show others that their life is so awesome. Does anybody really care who you're hanging out with at that specific moment in time? Well, no. But I think people get a lot of satisfaction out of tweeting and posting about who they are hanging out with; mainly to make people jealous of their lives because they aren't really that great to begin with. 


This is mainly a blog to express my frustration, which I did somewhat by writing this. But it is always going to be like this. People are always going to be insecure of their lives and want to make them seem more great than they really are… Oh well… what are ya gonna do. 

New Semester

Today was the beginning of classes and so far it has been pretty productive! I have had a lot of things to get done already even before things have started!! It's crazy. But I am working on not busying myself with things that I don't necessarily need to busy myself with. It can be so easy to make myself really busy and forget to slow down and just breath. Such a simple task can be so extremely difficult sometimes. Most of the time this comes from procrastinating, which I absolutely hate doing. And this semester I hope I am able to make it a habit to completely break! So far I am off to a good start! 


I am looking forward to this semester very much and have a lot of goals for myself that I am hoping to meet. I always like to keep the mindset that there is always room for improvement regarding "me". One of the goals that I am very excited about is my training for a 5k. Now those of you who are runners, may think this to be trivial. But 3.1 miles in my books is quite a ways! I started my training this morning, yes it was hard but I am taking baby steps towards the final product. I have always had the dream to be a runner, and what better time than now?! In my 20's while I'm young! I can't think of a better time, and hopefully I will have made running into a big part of my life. I've got to start somewhere, and I'm taking that small step.  Something that is going to help me through this training and running is the "Marky Mark & The Funky Bunch" Pandora station. It is off the chain! If anyone is looking for a station to give them new motivation every song and to add some humor to their workout, check out this station! You will find what you're looking for and MORE. I love it and am a strong supporter of 90's rap. Word. 

Reading.

This year I want to read more. I love reading and it is a big part of my life. Each month I want to make a list of books that I want to read each month. I want to read the classics, and more substantial books.

For January, I am reading the Narnia series. I have only read The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe when I was in elementary school and I love C.S. Lewis. 

I have read The Magician's Nephew and I am currently finishing up The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe. Stay tuned for next months books! 

Facebook.

In my opinion, I believe that Facebook was created in order for people to sit around and look at other people's pictures and wall posts and think, "Hmm my life is awful compared to this persons." and "Wow, I never get as many wall post as that person." It's ridiculous!! I catch myself thinking the most untrue things about my life and I despise it!!!! That's why I like Twitter better… ;) I know, I know. I'm so lame because I'm hating on one form of social media but then right after say I love another. Yeah, yeahhh… I don't care. But fuuur reaaal! Facebook plants all these untrue thoughts in my head that make me so sad. So I have to give myself a reality and check every time I start thinking these sorts of things. I also have to realize that people would never put up pictures of them doing lame and everyday things. No!! They're going to put up pictures of them with all these great people doing fun and outgoing things! People want their lives to be more attractive than they really are, we all want other people to look at our lives and think we have it together. But the fact of the matter is, none of us have it together! And if you think you do, you are probably falling apart right under your nose and you're just in denial. So be real. Be YOU! You've been given a job that only you can do, and that's to be yourself. No one else can do this but you, so don't try and dress up your life to look like everyone else's, just let you light shine. Because you ROCK. 

Never-ending habit.

I once told my friend, who is a year above me in school, that I had been thinking about my future. She giggled and said, "Don't, you'll never stop." I should have taken her advice! It's a consuming, never-ending habit. I allow myself to think of the fun parts of my future; such as what I'll wear to my big-girl job, how excited I am to have my own apartment and decorate it, and experimenting with cooking. But rarely do I think of the not-so-fun parts of my future, which includes paying off my debt (WOW this is a big whammy), being on my own and not living at home, paying my own bills and including all the debt I have already accumulated via student loans, where I will live (ideally I would like to live in Asheville, but I don't know if this will happen), who my roommates may be, and the really big one… MY JOB. What the heck am I going to do when I graduate?!!?!! I have no idea. I also am having to think about what type of internship I will do, which has to happen pretty soon, and I don't know the first thing about getting an internship.
Worrying about the future continually, limits our ability to enjoy the present. This year I want to live in the present. Not the future, and also not the past. Worrying about what the future holds can become unhealthy, but focusing on my past can become just as (if not more) consuming. The past has already be written, and if I am always concerned with the future I will never be able to "write" my present to it's full potential. That's what I want to do this year, live in the present. Now. This moment in time. My life is in God's hands and He's going to take great care of it. 

Brokenness

I cannot claim this as my own, I found it on a person's (who I look up to greatly) blog. It is a wonderful analogy of the Lord crushing us into something beautiful. Sometimes this is very frustrating and we resist, which results in a product that is not pretty. It is a beautiful thing to be obedient to the Lord. But it is not always very easy.


"If we are ever going to be made into wine, we will have to be crushed-you cannot drink grapes. Grapes become wine only when they have been squeezed.

I wonder what finger and thumb God has been using to squeeze you? Have you been hard as a marble and escaped? If you are not ripe yet, and if God had squeezed you anyway, the wine produced would have been remarkably bitter...We have to be placed into God and brought into agreement with Him before we can be broken bread in His hands."

My Utmost for His Highest

Oswald Chambers

 September 30

Class Jitters.

Right now, I have got a bad case of the "Class-Time-Jitters". These typically come when one it excited about something, or is simply bored. In my case, it's both!! I am so pumped for College Life tonight but on the other hand, I am so bored in class! I am so excited about Club that class is super boring. I knew that today was going to be one of those days. I just want to get my work done so I can plan things for College Life! Our Fall Retreat is coming up soon and me and my friend Kelsey (who is also on Leadership) are doing program for the retreat and I am SO excited!! But in order for me to plan for the retreat, I have so much school to do, and I could be doing it right now… But I'm in class, not paying attention and blogging; so maybe I should just leave..? Nahhh, I'll stick it out, only 30 more minutes!!